I don’t know how I managed to keep my shit together this long. Its been nearly a week and I haven’t cried until now. The Tuesday Blues certainly aren’t helping… It was fine last time - he was here last time. 3 was too much. The extra wasn’t worth the comedown. Sticking to 2 or less from now on. I should have know that it would be the worst time to try more.

I just got off the phone with him. It was so good to hear his voice. To hear him say that he missed me: “I really do. I miss you a lot.”

So far, I’d been coping I think by trying to throw accusations around in my head. It made my head hurt but I could keep the longing away. But hearing his voice really hit me hard. How can I throw around accusations that have been completely fabricated in my mind? The only person it’s hurting is me. But now that that has faded - it requires me to quit tearing myself to shreds - which is difficult. It’s almost become an automatic reaction when things don’t go as planned or expected; I wrongfully attack someone else in my mind and stew over it and guilt myself until I feel like an awful person for having the thoughts in the first place. 

The line was really bad wherever he was. It was 8 and a half minutes of trying to get the line back, but those last few words were worth it. Hopefully I will get to talk to him tomorrow morning. Early - 7am. But we will get to talk for a while. I almost don’t want to get my hopes up in case it doesn’t work or something happens. I just don’t want to be disappointed again. 

God I miss him though. It was all ok until we got off the phone. Then it just hit me like a tonne of bricks - right in the chest.

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HOW TO MAKE A CUTE DRESS OUT OF SHORTS

put shorts on

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put legs in one leg hole

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pull up and on to shoulder

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instant fashion

And here we have glitterweave sporting a beautiful Sunset Yellow 

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NEVER forget to accessorize 

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well one of us is going to have to change

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THIS JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER!!!

Guys

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I really think

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I’m winning this. 

(Yoga pants do the trick)

Ladies…..please….image

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